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Break Your Bones
03:18
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I saw you at some bar with a girl around your arm
I wanted to shout “girl, you better run”
She doesn't know what you'll put her through, not like I do
She doesn't know she'll be embarrassed
Surprised by all your actions
Play your game, you gotta have it
Yeah I’m still trying to figure out what exactly went on
You tried to keep me from all my friends, but look who made it in the end
It's not my fault, I know that now
No matter what you said out loud
I have to admit I still have thoughts of breaking all your bones
Yeah I’m still trying to figure out what exactly went on
I have to admit I still have thoughts of breaking all your bones
I want to break all your bones
I saw you at some bar with a girl around your arm
So I told her, girl move the fuck on
It’s not as good as breaking all your bones
But at least your bed stays cold
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Polka Dots
03:28
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This morning I put on the clothes that I wore when we met
The shorts you said I looked really good in
The polka dot shirt revealed my belly button
They were too tight
Distant memories of another life
I don’t know why
I should just try to pack them up, give them away
But I don’t, and I won’t
I still hold on to the possibility that maybe one day they’ll fit me
A small reminder of you and the closeness that I felt
I guess these shorts they make it real
They were too tight
And it doesn’t feel right anymore
I packed them up in a small box with all the memories I have of you
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Cancer
03:51
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When my grandpa died of lung cancer
I told myself I’d never fall in love with a smoker
But here we are and there you are
Clenching my fists in my pockets
I try to be aware of it
Let go of the tension
Clenching my fists in my pockets
It’s a bad habit
There’s always been a little self destruction in my blood
Maybe that’s why I like getting choked when we
Biting my tongue in the moment
I try to be aware of it
Let go of the the words I’m holding back
Biting my tongue in the moment
Bleeding is a habit
And I wonder if I could ever understand myself or anybody else
But the man on the moon taught me that you cannot live lawlessly
Without hurting the ones you love
I don’t wanna hurt no one
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4. |
07 Ford Focus
03:08
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I’ve been trying not to cry in my car anymore
Cuz it’s dangerous for other cars on the road
And it’s not fair to them
But the sound of metal collapsing is tempting
If I were in the hospital for weeks, no one would expect anything from me
And maybe I could get the help that I need
Just another stupid thought for the day
And I know that it’ll go away
If I shove it down far enough
Cuz I’ve had to prove that I’m so tough
My whole life I’ve traded flowers for thorns
Just hoping that someone was keeping score
And maybe they could stick around and help me plant seeds in the ground
I don’t know why I’m so terrified of life
Just another stupid thought for the day
And I think that it’ll be ok
If I can keep it all inside
Cuz I’ve learned it’s easier to hide
I try to rewrite the wires of my brain but nothing seems to change
It’s the same old refrain
Just another small step for the day
Cuz I wanna start to feel okay
No more hiding from the ones that I love
I just have to trust that I’m enough
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Constantly
03:38
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I think of you every January
I just hope you’re happy
Left my body, left my sight
I slept alone that night
Nine months you lived inside me
I keep you there to hold you closely
secret, safe, a piece of me I can’t erase
I heard you
I feel you
I see the evidence on my skin
Your face, your name, your smile
I can only imagine
I made a choice, you never knew me
We started our own families
Miles away, I’m left to wonder
Will I ever be your mother?
I think of you every day
I just hope you’re okay
Forty years you lived inside me
I keep you there but tell my story
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Inchworm
02:24
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I’ve been feeling like an inchworm but I just wanna run
My work is never done, I want to change my ways
I wanna speak to you and feel like I can tell my truth
I wanna hold my ground even when it’s not profound
What do we have now?
I can’t speak and I don’t think you can hear me
Get me out of this mess that I did not agree to
I’ve been screaming out loud and still I can’t be found
It’s just always been this way, my knees they end up scraped and I’m the one whose blamed
Am I the one to blame?
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Book Your Own Fest
03:14
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You feel so lost, yeah you “don’t know what to do”
But you keep booking shows where everybody looks like you
And I’m getting sick of it
Teaching you gender politics when you don’t even give a shit
You’d never stand front row at my shows
I think it'd break your cool guy code
I try to remember that it’s not for you
So what am I still trying to prove?
I feel so lost and nothing I push for changes
It’s like I’m showing up without an invitation
Beating my head against the wall trying to rearrange it
Trying to find representation
We all need space and so many don’t fit in the one that's been created
So it might be time for you to make some room
We all feel lost, but we’re finding something new
And we’ll keep booking shows that break your cool guy code
Fuck your cool guy code
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Slouching
04:08
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Things keep falling apart like the mug your mother made
I try to keep my head up but my posture’s not that great
So what happened to our friendship?
And why do I always feel like shit?
I’ve tried to be the glue for so long but I can’t be that fucking strong
I’ve got to let go of this feeling of control
I just hope that when I die
It’s on my own time
What doesn’t kill you
Well, it still tried
I hope that when I die
I’ll have felt alive
Everyone seems to be moving on
I’m so scared of what happens when they’re gone
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Woods
07:15
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Today I went into the woods to find some comfort or peace
I didn’t find it but at least I tried
I tried
I wanna cut off all my hair (I think I’ll try maybe trying)
I wanna swim and never stop (Never mind, I wanna slow down)
I wanna hug all the people that I’ve lost (Just leave me alone, I care too much)
It’s my anxiety getting the best of me (It’s just anxiety)
It’s my anxiety getting the best of me
Will I make peace with my fears?
Will I find anything worth finding here?
I want to get up and go but where am I going?
I can never run fast enough to get away from myself
Today I went back to the woods to see if I could breathe freely
But I stumbled and couldn’t find my air
I often wonder, why are we here?
I tried
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I kept going back to the woods
It’s hard to explain what I found
It’s better to be lost in the trees
Floating along in the breeze
It’s been quite a while since my world came crashing down
The only constant I’ve found is the dirt on the ground
I like to go out in the woods and sing to all the birds
Even when things get tough, they make me feel heard
I realize I am part of this
And nothing at all
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